Shhhh....

July something 2007

25th? 26th? 27th? 4pm-ish? (when I'm at the beach I don't keep up with time).
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(DESCRIBING OCEAN SOUND:)

first row, seashore
middle seat, oceanview
spoiled. all I see is sea, the gulf of mexico
one sea gull

blocking out everybody to the side(corner of my eyes) I am the only one out here now
take away the giggles and constant tones of youthful voices, the single aircraft up in the skies, this boy splashing - and
all I hear:

EYES CLOSED NOW:

| Swooshing simultaneously feel the breeze
the saltwater air slightly caressing my cheeks, nose, forehead
sand between my toes, soft

where the ocean rendezvouses with the sky
and the sky with the ocean
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a symphony of air and water
making melodies by shortly switching places
amidst waves
plunging toward shore

un/LIGHTedHEADedness

dizzE &not quite delightedaboutit

you cannot ph(F)ant(h)om how this FEELs

reality [tisincheck/ [yetupfront/ [andinherface

not used to reality| used to dreamality

nothing’s as it was

the specks of glitter typically caught glimmering in the corner of her eyes well

they’re neurons disgracefully acting up

medicine, once again

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sometimes I wish there was a sign you

could show close friends and family

with your hands, a simple gesture

to signify, to symbolize exactly what you are going through

without having to explain the details

a basic swish of the fingers

and they know what you're in for

...

and then they can sympathize

and you don't have to say a word

o I can't say a word

2010

so I didn't kiss anybody this new years

but I sure kissed somebody the eve of new years eve

does that count?

,-

back when I was alive;back when I could take flight;
I knew not yr middle name;you knew not mine

we had it without trying (it)

we did it through natural chemicals in our brains

the deep end was light years away

when you get near me I remember yr smell

it ceases to fade

our closeness kept us warm

kept us innocent

things were less complex then

back when

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recipe to ward off depression:

*a generous handful of people who care about you

*3 cups of hopefulness

*a dab of sunlight

*one quart quality time with close friends

*a limitless amount of fresh air

*ten days continuous bare the elements kind of exercise

*a daily scoop of productivity

*a hint of optimism.

*a spiritual encounter

stir it up & stay upbeat

k.

two years to the day

waiting for response

waiting for response

waiting for response I clean my hands of you

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and as for your sinister child,

we have no room for his restraints

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can't take peppin on a bike ride on my shoulder.. bloob bloob bloob

ain't the same

just ain't the same

thought

If I ever were to open a coffee shop I would take normally bland titled obvious drinks and liven up their presence by calling them names which are obscure yet spark curiosity.

My main drink would be called 'Hot Fuzz'

I would not tell the consumer what was in the drink.

The consumers would have to be bold to try 'Hot Fuzz' (it would come to be known as the house special)

that is all.