Shhhh....

July something 2007

25th? 26th? 27th? 4pm-ish? (when I'm at the beach I don't keep up with time).
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(DESCRIBING OCEAN SOUND:)

first row, seashore
middle seat, oceanview
spoiled. all I see is sea, the gulf of mexico
one sea gull

blocking out everybody to the side(corner of my eyes) I am the only one out here now
take away the giggles and constant tones of youthful voices, the single aircraft up in the skies, this boy splashing - and
all I hear:

EYES CLOSED NOW:

| Swooshing simultaneously feel the breeze
the saltwater air slightly caressing my cheeks, nose, forehead
sand between my toes, soft

where the ocean rendezvouses with the sky
and the sky with the ocean
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a symphony of air and water
making melodies by shortly switching places
amidst waves
plunging toward shore

un/LIGHTedHEADedness

dizzE &not quite delightedaboutit

you cannot ph(F)ant(h)om how this FEELs

reality [tisincheck/ [yetupfront/ [andinherface

not used to reality| used to dreamality

nothing’s as it was

the specks of glitter typically caught glimmering in the corner of her eyes well

they’re neurons disgracefully acting up

medicine, once again

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sometimes I wish there was a sign you

could show close friends and family

with your hands, a simple gesture

to signify, to symbolize exactly what you are going through

without having to explain the details

a basic swish of the fingers

and they know what you're in for

...

and then they can sympathize

and you don't have to say a word

o I can't say a word

2010

so I didn't kiss anybody this new years

but I sure kissed somebody the eve of new years eve

does that count?