.make sense! of this [NON]sense-tence.

14 September 2010

lingerie party

The hushed mostly church girls softly spoke on matters principle to topic, chiefly (upcoming marriage, honeymoon)except you know everyone was thinking about the big S word, sex.
whether virginal or not so, it was the subject, the thing, the thought lingering within minds imaginative, picturing themselves with another, how that would look, how awkward this bride to 3 weeks be would hurt since she didn't even wear super tampons. wtf we all were like. talking of the gynecologist. she modeled her corset which looked the sluttiest thing I've ever seen on such a 'pure' girl, barely over twenty. so 'godly', such natural beauty from within. she was hesitant to appear before her lingerie party, merely her wedding cast, closest girlfriends, adopted? foster? sister/ mother and then there was me- uninvited but came with a friend anyway who had been. I didn't bring a present, I ate the cake, I drank 3 cups of the pineapple punch, listened and participated in slicing the thick air of questionry, dull personas, shy speakers, and a quiet bride.
I asked, so how many kids do you want to have? where do you want to live, where will you live?
Pushing away good riddance to the 'they're gonna do it' idea/ mental scene which had plagued my mind for ten full minutes. She answered polietly, pleased to move (away) from such private subjects.

________

I told her to shut it, that she was acting like our
dad, but to her, our dad was our 'father'
and not even that, he was a stranger. the
kind of stranger you do not want to meet.
she shut it. then, she ceased to be a
bitch. that's all it took, just say something
about our stranger father and the subject
changes.

whoa

punk mc-cute my zipper keeps coming
undone I'd like to play piano you know
but you motherfuckers smoke indoors
y're on yr cruise, sick rich
I am on a ship I am passing mtns
the ones with snow caps, the ones wearing those
The sun jumped over the mtn down to
horizon haus, the place it disappears
and conceals itself under a single
horizontal line
this ship feels mammoth but when you
look up you realize the size of yr
surroundings
buncha brothers talkin' bowt blank
can't decifer, engine trouble, something Davis
sea bucket hat, tooth pick, glasses
"tie yr britches son"
"he was interrogatin' her, but she was interrogatin' you"
the sun grins on sailboats, tug boats,
the boats returning the glare, reflection
you want to know whats in my mind, No
you don't
punk mcCutie, wolf sweatshirt, black skinnys
teal shoes, lime laces, porcelain earrings
hightop
urban outfitters
fucking hipster, hipster
I want you rat tail cutie


How boys learn about flowers

from forms of poetry course, take a title (somebody else made up) and write a poem
"How boys learn about flowers"


[Boy speaking -> May 1930]


She pushed me into the daisies
we got grass & dirt
on our shirts
I remember vividly our rendezvous
I remember her
yellow bloom(ers)

June 13 hawt sprangz w.Aut & Jeremy

The Arkansas Summer
no AC in this toyota, that's just the way it is
the way it was back before modern
amenities, grannie remembers, it ain't
that bad, it's all you know and well,
you get used to it, it's normal, wind blown
hair is alright. esp. if you have short
hair like me. I don't give a shit.


55 North (observations on a road trip to Cape Girardeau, MO )

55 North

soy fields
rusted barns barbed wire fences
old rotting trees, concrete tower
lavender highway flowers
dotted line tall sky cumulous clouds
powerline
Popular Bluff exit Chicago
2 miles
Dexter Exit something B
city limit Sikeston
there's a new king in town
now entering Scott county hoo-rah
hoopla
Miner water tower/source
30 miles to destination
Cape Girardeau, MO
wedding plans - who's the man?

Thank you come again

from my yellow journal,unedited

Seattle, your air is crisp and cool
city streets
hella hipsters

grannie touristy feeding the pigeons
we are obviously not locals
I may be in my grey tone-monochrome
sequin shirt, my horizontal striped sweater
Speciality's Cafe, tasty delights
cutey hipster jesus across the way
SASSOON Union & 5th St 9:34 am
waiting to open
tones of fixies, everyone wears a helmet
no bones about it
reminds me of europe June 24, 60s in the
morning 70s in the day

me & the white rabbit are going places
leaving the South
suffocating, suffocation by bible belt
there are no fat turds here
lemme meet a washington boy, plz.

11 September 2010

names

my favorite names as of 2008-2009ish

a draft i have saved on my phone since then and updated some here and there last updated in july this yr

nikolaus 'niko'

nikolai

kingston

nadia

mae

eleanor

kit

kaspian

azure

bierk

aspen

marieclaire

fletcher

beau

xavier

olivia

loren

leif

pippin

adrien

issak

otto

misto

sullivan 'sully'

xiu

eliot

epiphany

09 September 2010

mid day tr(ah)ffic

gliding down harkrider

.morelike,, harkFRIGHT!er

street


my saturn's carrying me swiftly along

tonstartssbandht's playing high roller

i'm getting lost in this sound,

increase speed &

!L !I !F !T o!F!F


my mind leaves for>> ecSTATI(City)


f (4) i (3) v (2) e (1) seconds &i'm suddenly stunned

i realize i just drove straight through a stoplight

completely oblivious in somekindadaze

it got loud

and i left momentarily


to be edited/to not

sub rosa

bourgeoisie tip toeing

in the know(Sing)

castles of courtesans

tossing petals and posies


flaxen locks

unruly heathen[s(In)]

silk skivvies

way(Down)ward drool


Lest(er) the jester japes

skylarking, that fool


his highness

with a goblet

spilled wine

on his gauntlet

his armour, a bit loose

and shamelessly undone


your sovereign chest VS. her forbidden breasts

make this move, but beware- she may capture your kingdom

your Lilliputian (K)nights couldn't stand a chance

she'd have them cornered, those fellows, confused


in your tower so tall made of brick and cobblestone walls

you left your scent, an essence emerging from

the candle flickering in her mind

through (P)ages she awaits you



she'll

DRAG, YOU

DRAG, YOU -a -c -r -o -s -s


DRAG, YOU

DRAG, YOU

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DRAG, YOU

DRAG, YOU __________o_______ f ____ f