X-No thanks

[5 jan 09]

linky

no words
except these::

today my insides fluttered
a brief moment , for
it felt like CRUSH.d , SQUEEZE.d slowly
the way you would an orange to get the juice out
like a pebble on a windowpane
horrifyingly discouraging

no more

then sudden thought songtocomfort / confront
joshritter girlinthewar
rain in the rain in the rain

rules are meant to be KEPT
in this case

apathy

gOO ->a->w->a->y->

you dOO nOOt b.cOOm. m.
I n..d you nOOt

L.AV..

[5 febr 09]

E.

favours not WHEN on hushed nights, the deathforce blows and bellows its brassy tune, abrupt, then FADES off, along the steel rods carefully laid out across the land
what a rush
such a rush

the walls move slightly, wispy airs

airy wisps

Bonne nuit, machine à vapeur


E remains in the northwest courner relieved

[25 February 2009]

energy inefficient

[9 August 2009]

_give me the word that goes here and I might buy you lunch____ by a
bulbed
light,
lightedbulb
rosetoemeraldtoviolettocyan
carefully painted w.stripes
by hand
aglow INSIDE glass

O.
radiating.

ONTO
the desertbland
w a l l
/
dear crunchy coloured cellophane will you beMYfriend for always & ever
?
/
i don't care IF
this makes sense

i triple don't care
for cliques
X-|

makes me not want to go out
in the open air
makes me want to shout
in the open air
and skip that thing i was 'supposed' to bring myself to
air
open
the
in

can distinguish yourselves from, yourselves
you look all the same

with various
names/
o and it's
sorta kinda sorta lame.
let's rhyme let's not
i'll throw this out tomorrow with my compost
sure, yeah, that one, the one i(don't)own

rot

bestfriend

[23 September 2009]

boots
your face
that feeling you know you can't control the
one you , the one I have no words to explain/withyou
no need to

somebody
pinch
me

i might just cry

purple pants
kid
and those
new black shoes
,plain

fit


my calendar is old
it's: in the kitchen
from last year
,but september has the same days as july, mostly


going back to light brown hair or is it dark blonde you decide
from pink to blue to purple to turquoise to bleach to yellow to golden to
natural

yeah, uhh

AHHHHHHHHHHHH
\\


enter
enter your face

what happened to it?

o! i know. sounds like::



storage closet
storage closet on a rainy night
storage closet on a rainy night and a good makeout


me
pinch
somebody

i did/n't


--
i found: my winter shoes
enter

a winter beau n
o
t


something
undefined
the inbetween
the grey fuzzy unclear line
why/not


there are no other gentleman callers.
just you

CRUNCHing acorns

so I've decided to post previously written notes lately:

here's one I wrote on

[28 november 2009]

:::CRUNCHing acorns never fails to make my day
any time
AND/not OR
any way

for that quaint delight
iROMP around yards

&in my saturn
you know,
i've turned my music DOWn
just to hear that!
sOUND

Shhhh....

July something 2007

25th? 26th? 27th? 4pm-ish? (when I'm at the beach I don't keep up with time).
____________________________

(DESCRIBING OCEAN SOUND:)

first row, seashore
middle seat, oceanview
spoiled. all I see is sea, the gulf of mexico
one sea gull

blocking out everybody to the side(corner of my eyes) I am the only one out here now
take away the giggles and constant tones of youthful voices, the single aircraft up in the skies, this boy splashing - and
all I hear:

EYES CLOSED NOW:

| Swooshing simultaneously feel the breeze
the saltwater air slightly caressing my cheeks, nose, forehead
sand between my toes, soft

where the ocean rendezvouses with the sky
and the sky with the ocean
-----------------------

a symphony of air and water
making melodies by shortly switching places
amidst waves
plunging toward shore

un/LIGHTedHEADedness

dizzE &not quite delightedaboutit

you cannot ph(F)ant(h)om how this FEELs

reality [tisincheck/ [yetupfront/ [andinherface

not used to reality| used to dreamality

nothing’s as it was

the specks of glitter typically caught glimmering in the corner of her eyes well

they’re neurons disgracefully acting up

medicine, once again

==-

sometimes I wish there was a sign you

could show close friends and family

with your hands, a simple gesture

to signify, to symbolize exactly what you are going through

without having to explain the details

a basic swish of the fingers

and they know what you're in for

...

and then they can sympathize

and you don't have to say a word

o I can't say a word

2010

so I didn't kiss anybody this new years

but I sure kissed somebody the eve of new years eve

does that count?